MY LIFE IS IMPORTANT TO ME
Saturday, August 30, 2014
THE VOYAGE OF DISCOVERY
From Kiss to Kiss
I was invited to accompany Mama, my would be
mother- in-law (I also addressed her as Mama, as others in the family did) and
Rosy’s younger sister, to Mussoorie who needed consultation with some
specialist doctor there.
Our wedding date was yet to be finalised, possibly
it was only a few days before our wedding some times in the month of November. I willingly and with alacrity jumped to the
invitation, as Rosy was also to accompany us.
The ride, in the nearly empty bus to
Mussoorie, snuggling close to Jeet, now that we had come a bit closer to each
other with frequent meetings, in the approaching cold weather was heavenly.
Every time the bus took a sharp turn, on the circuitous hill-road, the force
generated by the turn would throw us even closer. It was an entirely new
experience for me, sadly the thirty or so Kilometers did not take too long to
be covered and reaching the bus-stand, I and Rosy got down along with others,
albeit rather reluctantly.
I still have my doubts, if the whole thing was not
pre-planned by Mama, a understanding mother, who possibly wanted to provide the
two of us, some private time. My suspicions appeared to
be justified since, no sooner that we had reached 'Library', the famous land mark of Mussoorie,
from where the track led down to the doctor’s clinic, Mama casually suggested
that we two go for a stroll around.
It was off-season in Mussoorie. With the
tourists gone back to the plains, most of the shops were shuttered, restaurants
and cinemas buttoning down for the coming winters, the town with few permanent
residents was nearly deserted.
Currently my reputation was under a
serious cloud among the prospective sisters-in law. Although the two of us had
had some moments together but had not advanced beyond the
Hand-holding stage, what to say of
kissing, as yet, They possibly were under the impression that this was the done
thing having caught the elder sister, mooching around a number of times
Much later, I learnt that that Rosy
was fed up with her sister's interest in our love life, who in any case was
nearly paranoid about this and could not understand this act of omission on our
part. Questioning her time and again: Has he kissed you? Did he kiss you? Why
has he not kissed you? Considering this as a blot on her, Rosy was also under
pressure, which she was finding hard to bear.
I had decided this time to finally
removes the stigma and thus climb a few notches up in the eyes of her sisters.
I have no doubt that with her sixth sense, Rosy had also got an inkling about
my intentions, especially when I suggested and she accepted, that we take a
walk down the even more deserted Camels Back road, without comment.
Hand in hand, Rosy quiet, now a
passive, though willing co-conspirator, I tense and not too confident of having
enough courage to achieve my mission, we ambled for some distance on the
deserted track of a road and sat down, close together, on the first bench, we
found. Both of us short of words,. a pregnant silence, laced with a bit of
expectation sat between the two of us.
The lack of verbal conversation, with a high
voltage current flowing to and fro between Rosy and me did not deter the silent
communication, the two of us expecting some thing to happen yet not too sure of
it, taking place;.
I was naturally nervous, an
inexperienced first timer, apprehensive and no doubt more than a bit confused.
Slowly very slowly, sitting by her side, I finally gathered enough courage and
some how managed to peck at her left cheek. Nothing happened, the sky did not
fall, lightning did not strike; the feeling of nervousness so over powering
that it totally masked any other sensation which I might have been experiencing
at the moment. It was definitely not a moment of passing ecstasy, as one would
have expected. However, I had managed to some how cross the Rubicon. There was
no apparent reaction from Rosy, though no doubt an upheaval must have been
taking place in her also. As I backed-off, feeling sheepish, I happened to
lookup and ahead across the track, there on the hillside were two women who had
been watching my amateurish antics and laughing to their hearts content. It did
dampen my spirits and added to my confusion to a considerable extent. I do not
recall that if we spoke about this non-incident at all, both of us pretending
as if nothing had transpired. But some thing irreversible had taken place
between the two of us. it was the start of the journey of discovering each other.
What had just changed every thing
between the two of us, did appear to be so unreal. The desolate town, the
deserted track, the pale November afternoon sun, the rays filtering through the
dense foliage of the pine trees, trying to fight the chill in the air, the
peeping-toms having by now disappeared somewhere, all adding to make it look
like an illusion. The to the two of us, a confused lot, wondering if it had happened or was it just our imagination .
The next step in the turns and
twists of the 'Journey of Discovery' just begun was to follow very shortly. We
moved to the RV, decided earlier, the Kwality Restaurant where we were to meet
for lunch. As we sat, opposite each other, waiting for our order to arrive,
avoiding each others eyes, oblivious to the presence of her mother and younger
sister sitting at the table, Rosy suddenly caught hold of my right hand and put
the middle finger between her teeth and bit the tip hard. The sharp pain and
the suddenness of the unexpected assault took me completely by surprise, the
instantaneous eye contact with her was a searing lightning bolt which hit me
hard. Possibly the pent-up emotions caused by the events of the last hour or so
needed a quick release or was it her innocent way of demonstrating her slowly
budding love for me? A question that remained
unanswered. Through a spontaneous gesture, to
me it appeared as a final act of accepting me as her companion on the voyage of
adventure, discovery and adjustment; a long journey together that lay in the
uncertain future.
Strange the journey which began
with a perfunctory kiss, that day, early in November of 1958 in Mussoorie also
ended with a kiss late at night on 30th October 2000, nearly 42
years later at Noida. It did end when she left me with her lifeless body in my
arms, with our lips glued together, in my desperate but unsuccessful efforts to
revive her, by mouth to mouth respiration.
Friday, May 30, 2014
HUTMENT
I was coming to Mhow, kind courtesy of Lt Gen Pant, Commandant MCTE, Who had invited me to deliver a talk on ‘Signals in Sino Indian Conflict of 1962 as it effected me.’ and also join the planned get together of SODE 41, as the Faculty Commander during the tenure of the Course in FCE.
I was coming to Mhow, kind courtesy of Lt Gen Pant, Commandant MCTE, Who had invited me to deliver a talk on ‘Signals in Sino Indian Conflict of 1962 as it effected me.’ and also join the planned get together of SODE 41, as the Faculty Commander during the tenure of the Course in FCE.
It was a home coming for me,
unfortunately without a home to come to. Our home, where we had lived during
our last stint at MCTE, some time during 19 79-82, a Second World War Hutment
on Generals Road existed no more It gave me no joy to see that the dilapidated
hutment that we had moved in to and over time with love and effort nurtured it into the most coveted dwelling
of its type on Generals Road.. had been
razed and in its place had sprung two modern characterless looking
bungalows, the hutment, with the No T 214, marked in
bold letter and figures on the General’s Road was in an advanced dilapidated state,
derelict, about to fall and with all rooms leaking during the monsoons.
General’s Road was indeed a very prestigious sounding address as Lt Gen
Sundarji the Commandant College of Combat also lived on the same road.
On the earlier posting to Mhow we had also lived in a hutment
the only difference between then and now was the up-gradation from dry to water
borne sanitation a giant step in technology from 1963 to 1980.
The hutment had a number of rooms in the long arm of the ‘T’
with the living room in the top of the ‘T’ with the kitchen and the pantry at
its extreme end. Any exercise that I needed was provided by the long walk for a
glass of water in the night from the bedroom, through the guest room, the
sitting-room and then to the fridge kept in the pantry.
The rooms had a number of rickety doors and windows with
innumerable glass panes, as a matter of fact so many to check and bolt that one
or two were always left unsecured in the night or whenever we went out.
There was also a detached garage, a bit away, which I never used
as I could drive my Conifer Green Herald through the rickety gate, crunching
the gravel of the driveway straight up the ramp on to the wide veranda.
What struck us when we
went to have a look before taking it over was the majestic and massive Banyan
tree dominating the compound. There was also a large Keekar tree in front.
The, by now, unkempt and
untrained creepers, courtesy some previous occupants, Morning Glory, Floribunda
Roses and a few of Bougainvillea climbing up the numerous pillars of the
extended veranda right to the tiled roof though a welcome sight, it did
bring out the dilapidated state of the
hutment in a greater relief.
The Lantana hedge, unkempt and with many gaps, with a few of strands of barbed wire, the one
side hanging wooden gate, more to demarcate the line of actual control than any
thing else, constituted the total security. About the interior condition of the
hutment the less said the better.
For company we also had a live-in ‘Owl’ who had made his abode
in one of the crevices in the outside of the living room wall. Fearless of us
he would welcome us with a dour expression, his large round eyes shining bright
in the headlights of the car as if reproaching us for returned home so late in
the night.
We set about making a home of the
house and improving its looks and the interior with and without the help of the
MES. Jeet, fond of flowers, potted plants and a green patch in front, got about
organizing the same. Though discouraged with the daunting task
ahead both of us got down to making the structure liveable and carve a home out
of it, entailing frequent visits to the MES yard for some decent furniture and
telephone calls to the GE (Garrison Engineer), a harassed individual, with one
Lt General, two Maj Generals, innumerable Brigadiers and a plethora of Cols in
station, struggling some how to cater to their innumerable demands. My
requirements were simple and not exhaustive- just the leaking roof, tiles in
the toilet, the cracked sink and WC and a coat of whitewash in the rooms.
Jeet had a large
collection of potted plants at Delhi; Monster, Dracaena, Benjamin, Araucaria
and rubber plant among others which she
had got loaded in the EVK along with the car, trunks and the packing cases and
brought them along to Mhow. Having a common gardener with the General also
helped in the addition of a few more exotic plants from the Flagstaff House.
Some plants went inside to put some life in the living room while others added
charm to the till now bare and desolate veranda
We developed a small lawn, Jeet planted some seedlings which
soon bloomed in to multi coloured flowers. Over time the joint efforts paid and soon the derelict became
the cynosure of every one in the station.
The small pond with a tap for storing water for the garden had
some Lemon Grass growing the recipe of the exotic tea, a favourite of the
casual visitors dropping-in a few bit of the same added to the tea leaves in
the pot was no doubt her best kept secret when in Mhow.
We also fashioned a swing, the ropes hung from one of the
branches of the Keeker tree. Dimpy, Minni and Sandy, the adorable children of
Lt Col Gurdeep and Juli, his non practicing, doctor wife our next door
neighbours, were soon attracted as if by the magnet to the swing and so did the
two daughters Anu and Anjana of Lt Col
Ravi Kumar both Directing Staff at College of Combat, living across the road.
From the posting at Kalimpong I had brought a couple of Chinese
lanterns with wooden frames with glass sides. We hung one of these with an electric
bulb inside on one of the lower branches of the Keeker tree. The rays of light
the lantern, swinging slowly in the mild breeze, filtering through the
innumerable needle like Keeker leaves would weave an ever-changing pattern of
light and shade a pleasant and soothing sight. Both of us sitting on the easy
chairs in the veranda late in the night watching the shifting, pattern
listening to the soft strains of music emitting from speakers of the 'Norge'
amplifier with one of her favourite
record from her large collections of LP's was relaxing enough after a stressful
day in the Faculty. It was magic a different world, as long it lasted.
As the car drove on the Generals Road with me
I expectantly looking for the
dear hutment I was not ready for the shock that awaited me, it was a sad sight
to see the characterless concrete structure that has replaced our home
of yore., it was indeed a home
coming (to Mhow) with out a home to come
to.
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
COMPASSION
It is early night,
late evening and we are merrily cruising on the well lighted, and now with the
hectic construction activities around on pause for the night, and less
frequented with sparse traffic roads of Noida.
Noticing a suddenly emerging obstruction ahead,
Ranjit floor the brake paddle and the car comes to a grinding halt.
Ahead
an on coming Santro has also come to a screeching halt as also an stopped Auto that is now facing across the
road in the process.
The three
vehicles make a virtual triangle in the middle of which, unmindful of
the danger, sit two emaciated and hungry pups who, possibly searching
for the mother, away forging for some food, have dragged
themselves there .
The tableau, with ever one in a bit of shock,
remains frozen till the reverie is broken by a good Samaritan who jumps out of
the car, picks up the two from the cuff of their neck and places them
at a safe distance on the side of
the road ,when it dissolves and each one speeds up in their own direction.
Compassion is not dead yet, people still feel
for animals if not for human beings, I keep mulling as we speed up towards AVI where we are due for a get together of
Noida Signals Forum.
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
THE OLD MAN AND HIS OLDER REMINGTON
The other day I was at Tees Hazari , Delhi in connection with some legal matter and
was required to submit an application
post haste.
Bereft of the
support of a Computer /Printer I looked around, searching for some one free and
unoccupied from among those busy in the innumerable, miniscule open cubicals displaying Court Marriage, Affidavit and
such sundry jobs on small boards, lining the narrow road.
The heavy traffic plying in both directions, making walking across on my wobbly legs a dangerous proposition,
still I make slow haste towards one, who
appears to be free and without business, hoping to get the job completed
quickly.
Next to his seat, under the same shed, a Court
Marriage was being solemnised. The young
couple, the bride in her finery, possibly, self made-up and dressed, as there
was no one accompanying them, were
setting up on a journey, with hope and love , in un-chartered waters and an uncertain future : what are their
aspirations and worries, forgetting my on immediate concern for a moment , I wonder. I did congratulate her
as they rushed past, possibly too involved in her own thoughts, to be aware of
the surroundings, thee was no response.
He happens to be an old man with an even older
Remington typewriter, possibly a family heirloom handed down from generation to generation, on rickety table, next to it is a stack of files, possibly containing
templates of the various legal documents in demand for typing. Both are an aberration, in the company of
young operators, with computer/printers, around and stand like a sore thumb.
Distracted briefly, by the happenings nearby,
I quickly draft the required matter, in my nearly illegible hand and not only have to dictate but, due to his rudimentary
knowledge of English, also spell most of the words.
Despite his age, his typing skills appear to
be that of a beginner, with no delete /insert facility and apparently no
whitener available, I have to be content with what ever he could and did produce.
A wise man nonetheless,
with the going rate being per typed page, I notice, he has typed in double
space, trying to stretch the matter on as many pages as possible.
The typed page now in my hand I query
“How much”
“Rupees Twenty “he
replies.
With the business settled amicably I leave
wondering as to how many such Rs 20 he will earn in the day to subsist upon
Sunday, April 13, 2014
PRE BOOKED AND PRE COOKED
From the 25 C, the isle seat of the GOINDIA
Airbus flight from Delhi to Chennai I can see right up to the far end to the flight cabin.
In the near vision is 25 DEF and also, with a slight twist of the neck 26 DEF.
There is a group of Marwaries men, women and children,
as learnt later, on a tour of various religious places, noisily trying to
settle down in their allotted and also the unoccupied seats
I,
twist the neck and look back and what do
I see: before fully settled the lady in
26 E has already unwrapped a packet of Snacks from her bag and is busy dipping in it and
offering from the same to those seated near of the group..
Even
before the plane has started its takeoff run she unties the knots of the cloth bag
revelling, a stack of Aloo Puree, GOINDIA is a low fare airline and food is
available on payment at exorbitant rates, wise people bring their own food an
drinks on board, soon starts the distribution of the Aloo Purees, served
on plastic plates up and down the isle to the
other members of the group.
I slight hungry, having missed
breakfast due to the early flight, am reminded of our train journeys as a child, when Mother
would bring the Aloo Puree and mango pickle for the journey and even before we had
settled in the compartment Father would ask mother to serve
the goodies, so bidden she would start with giving two purees, a dollop of the
potatoes and a slice of pickle to each one of us..
The setting
is the same, except it is the
aircraft’s AC cabin of the plane flying at
25 000 feet at 800 Kms per hour instead of the Inter Class, hot or cold,
depending on the season, railway compartment of East India Railway chugging along at 25 Miles per hour, with mother no where to serve the Aloo Purees, that I covertly watch in the hands of others in s nearby seats , while waiting
for the trolley being trundling up the isle bringing my prebooked and precooked, tasteless, Paratha Rolls
while savouring, with nostalgia, the wafting aroma from the Aallo Puree being
devovered with relished around me.
Friday, April 11, 2014
MHOW
: THE HOME COMING WITHOUT A HOME TO
I was coming to Mhow, kind courtesy of Lt Gen Pant, Commandant MCTE, Who had invited me to deliver a talk on ‘Signals in Sino Indian Conflict of 1962 as it effected me.’ and also join the planned get together of SODE 41, as the Faculty Commander during the tenure of the Course in FCE.
I was coming to Mhow, kind courtesy of Lt Gen Pant, Commandant MCTE, Who had invited me to deliver a talk on ‘Signals in Sino Indian Conflict of 1962 as it effected me.’ and also join the planned get together of SODE 41, as the Faculty Commander during the tenure of the Course in FCE.
It was a home
coming for me, unfortunately without a home to come to. Our home, where we had
lived during our last stint at MCTE, some time during 19 79-82, a Second World
War Hutment on Generals Road existed no more It gave me no joy to see that the
dilapidated hutment that we had moved in to and over time with love and
effort nurtured it into the most
coveted dwelling of its type on Generals Road.. had been razed
and in its place had sprung two modern characterless looking bungalows.
It was with a late evening Air India flight from Delhi that
I landed at Indore, with the city lights glowing all around.
Indore
at night appeared to be a
stranger, my eyes kept roaming , desperately
and fruitlessly searching for some old land marks to anchor on , what I could
see was a mass of new buildings
with glass façades, illuminated sign boards flanking both sides
of the broad well metalled road from the Airport to the City. Strangely, though
it was early night, the traffic on the road was rather sparse, possibly every
one was glued to the TV watching the on going India Bangladesh ICC 20 20 match.
The car took a turn and
hit the road to Mhow and then the nightmare began: there was hardly any road
left with diggings
on both flanks, for flyovers under construction, on going development for new colonies, shopping centres and what have you, living little space for the heavy two way traffic of trucks, passenger busses, cars and the ubiquitous motor cycles ridden by daredevil riders, zipping in and out of the non existing gaps in the
chaotic traffic on the now single lane
of a road..
The
torture, from blaring horns, head lights
on full beams making one blind to the
oncoming traffic, lasted for long and ended only when the car crossed the toll barrier near Mhow and
the sailing became
smooth with the drive now on the
reasonably good surface road with sparse traffic.
Mhow Cantt at night with brightly lit roads,
flood lit prominent buildings, approach
gates, sign boards and even some trees was shinning,: power appeared to be
available in plenty .
It appeared as if the
town was awaiting the arrival
of some VIP. However, for the time being it had to be content
with me, a non VIPs’ arrival.
Nearing the
portals of MCTE, it was a different
world altogether, what was visible
of MCTE from the car window was shining
like a new bride, even the iconic
tree of HQ Mess appeared much younger than it’s age.
Passing through
and by a plethora of new constructions the car drove into the guestroom complex
where I was received by Lt Col Preetal, the SO of FCC. Till now, in my retired life,
I had come across Captains and Majors of
the other sex; It was for the first time that I was confronted by a Lt Col of
their elk.
Looking around I could see bright lights all around,
what especially caught the eye was a brightly lit complex in near distance that
proved to be the sports complex of MCTE.
I had nagging feeling that I was in a
different place and not in the Mhow of yore.
The place had changed drastically in the last ten years, from my last
visit to Mhow.
Mhow
Cantt by day wore a different
look, still shining bright with liberal application of Garu
Chuna, replete with massive, characterless, new construction sadly
interspersed with old bungalows with large compounds, in advance stages of
disrepair, with roofs fallen and grass
growing through the now gaping holes. Surprisely, a few, though equally derelict,
still occupied by some adventurer minded, diehards, unmindful. of the possible
danger to life and limb.
A round
of the
MCTE Campus evoked a mixed feeling: the old buildings that of
FCE, that I had commanded, the old mess barrack, where we as YO’s had dined
for six months, the dreaded Commandant’s office complex appeared to have lost their aura now
downgraded with current lowly
ranked occupants., the glamour, power and authority having shifted to
modern and swanky abodes leaving
history behind.
The Passing out Parade Demo by the cadets was
impressive and drew prolonged applause. The following High Tea provided me a unique
opportunity to interact with the cadets.
The time spent with the SODE officers and
their wives brought flooding memories of
my tenure as Faculty Commander where and when I had made a large number of
enduring friendships.
My presentation to a packed house, based on
the question answer session, appeared to have been well received.
The Dinner in Ashoak Vatika was an
unforgettable experience. the soft lights dotting the vast expense of the lawn , the typical Malwa
evening breeze blowing mildly,
the myriad trees around, festooned with multi colour lights, swaying in
the breeze the old favourites being
rendered by the Gazal
Singer in the back-ground, combined to make the setting memorable and the mood go soft, albeit sadly reminding me, now alone, of such Mhow evenings of distant past spent together, with Jeet, my
late wife.
On a visit to FCE, so different from that of yore, now located
in the renovated/rebuilt Raman Block, with Brigadier Bhatt apprising and updating as to where the Corps
has arrived technologically and also of venturing in the yet unexplored field
of Robotics. The Corps that brought in
Computers has always been forward thinking and pioneers in new fields.
A visit to the
ongoing exercise of YO’s being conducted
in the faculty premises convinced me of the new challenges to be faced by Signallers, both present and future, of
managing the complex networks, providing
voice and data, while not forgetting the requirements of logistics and man
management.
The Dinner the
next evening on the rear lawns of HQ Mess provided a unique opportunity to
interact with young officers of different ranks and length of service and renew
friendship with old friends staying in Signals Vihar.
Preceding the
dinner we were witness to a unique function:
a quiz on Corps Domestic Matters: organized by the Young Officer and conducted under a dynamic Quizmaster from staff, where along
with the competing teams the
more mature audience also got a chance to participate, some times silently at
others vocally.
The unique feature
of the evening, apart from the lavish spread, was being serenaded by a Saxophone player: a welcome change from
the Bagpiper of yore.
To catch the
returning flight from Indore I had to start early, with the morning Sun
yet to emerge from the horizon Mhow Cantt, was still shining bright and had
some early walkers already on the road. Surprisingly there were also some health
conscious, unaccompanied, ladies also out.
Mhow happily was
safe for ladies unlike the other not so lucky places in the Country.
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
URBANISATION OF THE
RURAL INDIA
Where are the
villages of yore? Driving on the short stretches of smooth roads, shorter
patched of mirror smooth roads and long stretches of road sections under utter
disrepair we hit the Chutmal Pur Mohand
section on way to Dehradun and soon come to a grinding halt at the tail end of
a massive traffic jam.
Long wait and no progress possible Ranjit turns the car off the road and to a track leading to the village on the side, with high hopes of bypassing the Jam.
Surprised in find missing the villages of Yore: no mud house, replaced with brick ones, cars parked in the courtyards where once the pride of place was generally occupied by the two wheeled carts, the water logged lanes with paved ones, in much better state than the N H we had just left behind and the ubiquitous DTH dishes adoring the rooftops of every house..
Long wait and no progress possible Ranjit turns the car off the road and to a track leading to the village on the side, with high hopes of bypassing the Jam.
Surprised in find missing the villages of Yore: no mud house, replaced with brick ones, cars parked in the courtyards where once the pride of place was generally occupied by the two wheeled carts, the water logged lanes with paved ones, in much better state than the N H we had just left behind and the ubiquitous DTH dishes adoring the rooftops of every house..
We hit into a marriage party: with the local beauties decked in the latest fashion, thanks to the access ads on TV and wonder of wonder even a mobile repair shop, possibly doing good business, with a mobile in each hand.
Prosperity has come to the villages in a big way following progress.
We did manage to by pass the traffic jam by a circuitous but good track. and after an hour's drive hit the Chaos of Dehradun Thanks once again to progress and prosperity.